I haven't been writing very much this year. It's hard to know how to express myself on the internet when I know that anything about me that ends up *out there* can end up in front of eyes I'd prefer didn't see it. It's hard to know how to talk about things I care about … Continue reading it’s brutal out here
captain’s log
It's been a while since I've written! I graduated from graduate school in December and hoped to start a new job in a familiar place quite quickly, but things didn't work out that way. As it turns out, nothing really went the way I thought it would go. I was expecting this year to be … Continue reading captain’s log
tin
Tin is traditionally the gift given on a ten-year wedding anniversary. This is the story of the day my life changed forever, ten years ago today. On July 1, 2009 I had an allergy test. I had been getting sick for the previous few months and I was starting to think I might be allergic … Continue reading tin
not the best
I played the piano today. I played it without headphones and while someone else (my partner, J) was in the room. I didn't even really think about the fact that he was there, I just played- a few old Clementi sonatinas that probably were trotted out nervously in front of an audience in 2002, some … Continue reading not the best
this is 28
(i) I am on a train on my way to get Italian ice, my favorite Chicago dessert, a treat for my birthday. We are stopped because of mysterious mechanical difficulties (#chicago). I have two tote bags with me because I need to buy some groceries on my way to night class, but the combination … Continue reading this is 28
transgenerational memory
or, "sometimes your brain does weird shit when your grandparents were refugees" There's this video floating that's been floating around the internet for a few years called "The Most Shocking Second a Day Video". The title is terrible and click-bait-y, but the video is incredibly well-made. Its purpose is to show the trauma war has … Continue reading transgenerational memory
2017 in review
I'm eating breakfast right now. I was starting the first paragraph of this post when I spilled my entire bowl of oatmeal on my left thigh (though luckily saving most of it with my shirt). The oatmeal is cold because I put frozen fruit in it- not really the warm treat I wished for myself … Continue reading 2017 in review
Back to School #22
It was a long and hectic summer. Parts of it were wonderful, parts of it were frustrating and stressful, and parts of it were bittersweet. In reflecting back on what I did and how I've grown in the past two months, I find it somewhat hard to believe that it's still the same year, and … Continue reading Back to School #22
an unwanted anniversary
I've been feeling on edge lately, which is not abnormal for this time of year. Since I've spent a good deal of my life in school, June was usually the time of year where my normal schedule was interrupted; it was when many of my friends were packing up to move elsewhere or off having … Continue reading an unwanted anniversary
“Here” and “Somewhere Else”
I've been thinking a lot about war lately. Currently it's because I'm in Croatia, a place that was devastated by civil war during my lifetime (more about that later), but generally it's because of the horrible things my government has been attempting to, and sometimes succeeding in doing. I've always been kind of a pacifist. … Continue reading “Here” and “Somewhere Else”
weary traveler 