[content notice: I’m going to talk about what it’s like for me to be a therapist and not everyone is excited to hear about this perspective, even though all therapists are also regular humans, too. If that's you, maybe skip this one] The whole time I was in grad school I was waiting for someone … Continue reading what is therapy, anyway?
it’s brutal out here
I haven't been writing very much this year. It's hard to know how to express myself on the internet when I know that anything about me that ends up *out there* can end up in front of eyes I'd prefer didn't see it. It's hard to know how to talk about things I care about … Continue reading it’s brutal out here
captain’s log
It's been a while since I've written! I graduated from graduate school in December and hoped to start a new job in a familiar place quite quickly, but things didn't work out that way. As it turns out, nothing really went the way I thought it would go. I was expecting this year to be … Continue reading captain’s log
tin
Tin is traditionally the gift given on a ten-year wedding anniversary. This is the story of the day my life changed forever, ten years ago today. On July 1, 2009 I had an allergy test. I had been getting sick for the previous few months and I was starting to think I might be allergic … Continue reading tin
not the best
I played the piano today. I played it without headphones and while someone else (my partner, J) was in the room. I didn't even really think about the fact that he was there, I just played- a few old Clementi sonatinas that probably were trotted out nervously in front of an audience in 2002, some … Continue reading not the best
I love baths and I don’t care who knows it
I have been writing about self-care for a few years in reaction to over a decade of being an insomniac workaholic with chronic health issues related to not taking care of myself. My favorite post on the subject is from The Mighty and was actually written by a social worker, but well before I ever … Continue reading I love baths and I don’t care who knows it
Therapy is revolutionary: a short story in two acts
I. Halloween 2014 I finished off three pounds of jelly beans for the second time in October. II. Halloween 2017 I had four fun-sized kit-kat bars and a York peppermint patty and thought to myself “well, this is plenty”. Then I ate dinner and did something else and didn’t think about the large bowl of … Continue reading Therapy is revolutionary: a short story in two acts
Work, Women, and Food: More Words on a Tired Subject
One of the most maddening things I've experienced since starting eating disorder recovery is the frequency in which people, especially women, put down themselves and their bodies in everyday conversation. I've taken part in this apparently normalized activity myself, but it was only when I sought treatment that I realized how pervasive– and impossible to … Continue reading Work, Women, and Food: More Words on a Tired Subject
an unwanted anniversary
I've been feeling on edge lately, which is not abnormal for this time of year. Since I've spent a good deal of my life in school, June was usually the time of year where my normal schedule was interrupted; it was when many of my friends were packing up to move elsewhere or off having … Continue reading an unwanted anniversary
Sometimes it helps to set the bar really low
Things I did today: 🏅brushed my teeth 🏅went to work (full time job with benefits, including dental; nbd) 🏅ate a meal comprised of multiple food groups (x2) 🏅have a bank account 🏅dressed appropriately for the weather 🏅thought about exercising (it's only 1pm; I might still do it)
weary traveler 