Before I have the benefit of hindsight and, what I hope is the blessed relief that comes from knowing what happened during the Donald Trump presidency, I want to make a note of what it's like right now. It is December 15, 2017. I am awake at midnight, even though I should be waking up … Continue reading Before I forget
Therapy is revolutionary: a short story in two acts
I. Halloween 2014 I finished off three pounds of jelly beans for the second time in October. II. Halloween 2017 I had four fun-sized kit-kat bars and a York peppermint patty and thought to myself “well, this is plenty”. Then I ate dinner and did something else and didn’t think about the large bowl of … Continue reading Therapy is revolutionary: a short story in two acts
Work, Women, and Food: More Words on a Tired Subject
One of the most maddening things I've experienced since starting eating disorder recovery is the frequency in which people, especially women, put down themselves and their bodies in everyday conversation. I've taken part in this apparently normalized activity myself, but it was only when I sought treatment that I realized how pervasive– and impossible to … Continue reading Work, Women, and Food: More Words on a Tired Subject
an unwanted anniversary
I've been feeling on edge lately, which is not abnormal for this time of year. Since I've spent a good deal of my life in school, June was usually the time of year where my normal schedule was interrupted; it was when many of my friends were packing up to move elsewhere or off having … Continue reading an unwanted anniversary
Sometimes it helps to set the bar really low
Things I did today: 🏅brushed my teeth 🏅went to work (full time job with benefits, including dental; nbd) 🏅ate a meal comprised of multiple food groups (x2) 🏅have a bank account 🏅dressed appropriately for the weather 🏅thought about exercising (it's only 1pm; I might still do it)
body language
Over the course of the past few years I have begun to come to terms with my complicated relationship with food, exercise, and the world around me. For many people this type of journey involves learning new words to describe their bodies in empowering ways. Supportive communities have sprung up around terms like "fat", "disabled", "queer" and "survivor" … Continue reading body language
learning how to read again
The last few months have been a chaotic mess of holidays, illness, cabin fever, and extreme stress about things I can't control (mostly graduate school applications and everything related to politics). I have been spending most of my time either working, volunteering, or trying in vain to keep up with the news. I have so … Continue reading learning how to read again
weary traveler 